Trust

Who can you trust everyone you know can hurt you in some way?I ask myself questions like that quite often and it's hard to answer.I mean everyone can hurt you,your family,friends,and strangers can all hurt you.And if you do trust someone how do you trust show it?In my case I tell them things that they could in some way use against me or something that had a major impact on my life.I have only told one person just about everything and I hope I can trust her,she's my last reason to keep going.If I lose I can honestly say it's over.

A different kind of war

So alot of my ancestors fought in wars like WWII,Korea,and Vietnam.In one way or another someone in my family fought for something well the good ones.My dad tried to fight but got rejected by the military because of a bad heart.And me I fight a different kind of war,I fight for my friends.And in this war you don't fight alone and you don't play fair.And it may seem to be a a noble cause more or less but it's still a terrible way of dealing with things.But some of the things had to be done and i'm not proud of the things we did...but we fought for the right.I don't fight anymore though because there's nobody to really fight for here at least.

The story of me...well the important part

I was born October 1st at midnight in Patchouge,NY (I don't feel like mentioning the year).My parents are both great,my cousins who are awesome...and the rest of my family hates me and I hate them.So living on Long Island for your whole life with no true friends and with a family that hates you...it makes you hate the place,I hate this island and I can't wait to leave.My life was doing well until one day,my 3rd girlfriend deep sixed (died).I loved her more than anything and her death changed me but not for the the better.Certainly not for the better.So I got depressed or at least I think that's the way to describe it.It was bad at first balling my eyes out,than things changed I got really cold emotionally,after that was anger and I found a way to blame myself,and finally I didn't want to take it anymore I wanted to deep six myself too.But than I met someone who told me why I shouldn't deep six myself and I listened to her.After she told me why I changed again for the better this time.And now i'm just going on with hopes to get off this island and see a friend that helped me through my darkest hour.

About all this

So reason I am sitting here typing on about my life is because...well actually I have no idea.I guess I am making this for myself,my friend,and for anyone that gives a damn.So here I go people,wish me luck.